I am beginning to realize that part of the reason I am not entirly happy with my life is because I have always allowed everyone in it to push me, and mold me into who they think I should be.  Sometimes I feel as though no one really cares who I think I should be. This is my last chance to do something great with MY life. I do NOT want to grow old living in run down reatal properties or worried about how I am going to support myself when I retire. I crave more than that, I diserve more than that. Oppurtunity comes once in a life time, but for me it has come at least three that I can think of.  Am I wrong to think this could mean that I am meant to succeed?  I am not getting any younger, and I may not get any more chances in my life. So I am taking this one ! I realize it will take hard work,and self disapline but it will be worth it.